Who is the Fox?

Well, she’s me! I have always had a hard time with describing who I am. I feel like there are so many pieces that come together to create who I am that get complicated by intricate stories that I just never really feel like there’s just one way of looking at who I am.

I had a pretty complicated childhood, and maybe there will be a time where I share stories with you, but an introduction doesn’t seem the most appropriate place to do that. Regardless, it’s just one piece in the puzzle that is me. I grew up in the Seattle area, and that’s not to say that I grew up around Seattle, I mean I literally grew up in the areas in and around the city. I spent a lot of time bouncing from house to house. Eventually my life settled out in Tacoma, WA, where I went to high school and college and met my now-husband. Now, I’m the mom of two rescues, Maize and Diogi, living in Savannah, GA.

Why the fox?

Well, it all begins with my father. He believed himself to be spiritual, having grown up in a pretty traditionally Jewish home.  However, as a man who chose to be homeless, he was clearly lost a little searching for meaning in his life. He found a little in the culture of the Tlingit people, and spent a lot of time with them in his early adulthood. When I was born, he took me to a friend, who told him that I had the spirit of a fox, and that’s where it all began.

Now, this was pretty bogus to me for a long time, I admit that. I identified where I could during my teenage years, while I too was searching for meaning in my life and grasping at straws for a meaningful relationship with my father.

I saw myself in that role. I knew myself to be curious, intellectually, but also a little nosy in life too. I knew I spent a lot of time alone. I evaded the truth, preferring to tell people what I knew they wanted to hear, having come from a background where that was a survival method. You could call it cunning, as I also saw through it when people tried to lie to me.  As I have grown I see the relation more and more, and have grown to embrace this totem and find new ways it fits with my life.

TL;DR: it’s been with me my whole life, and I’ve learned to appreciate it.

 

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